Tough Times...
I am very blessed in many ways, I am very aware of that but if I am totally honest this Summer has been pretty shit for me so far. Great intro huh? I haven't really been on track with #TenOnTenOff due to the reasons I talk about below and I can really see a difference in myself; my clothes are getting tighter again and any definition I had is slowly disappearing which is frustrating but after having a very rough month I am slowly starting to get back into the swing of things one step at a time.
Work
Work has been pretty tough for me recently and I have honestly never felt so incompetent and such a failure in my whole life. I obviously cant go into the specifics on a public forum but it has really affected me and has knocked my confidence. I honestly feel like there is someone blocking this path for me. I have been fighting for 10 years to be a lawyer and cannot understand why it has ben such an uphill struggle for me. But, for anyone who knows me, I am not one to give up. I do believe that everything happens for a reason and will all work out.
Nanny Beth
Marks grandmother, Nanny Beth, passed away two weeks ago and her funeral was held on 11th July. She was such a wonderful little lady and she will be really missed. She loved Soup Saturdays and always had a little jar of sweeties hidden under a couch cushion ready and waiting to share. I actually knew her longer than my Granny and Granddad Crossey and was very close to her so its been a hard loss. I was really worried about Mark as he had only lost one grandparent about 20 years ago but he has been so amazing and strong for his family during this and I couldn't be more proud of him.
Marks Auntie Eileen (Beth's sister) also passed away 10 days after Nanny Beth did so its been a very tough time for our family :(
Moving Forward
I am starting to feel like Im getting back to myself and getting my head more in the game, work and fitness wise. I went to the gym twice this week and have ideas for work in order to progress further so at least thats something.
