Mind the Gap
I always feel a little lost after one of my projects ends; there’s always this gap between the start of a new project and the end of an old one where I’m not sure what my next goal is, what programme I want to do, what I want to work towards and in this time I tend to get ‘pudgy’. This is my own ‘affectionate’ term for when I start to lose all my tone and feel my jeans get a little bit snug again. The ‘Pudgy Interim’ (as it shall be known from now on) is not good for me.
What I mean by that is, I’m a very focused person and when it comes to my fitness projects, when I lose focus, I tend to drop all of the plates that I have been spinning; food, nutrition, exercise and sleep all go out the window as they are generally a project package for me. Work has been very busy for the last while and I have been cheating on fitness with furniture (as we have been redoing our master bedroom, and our whole house has been a mess for the past few weeks which has been a bit stressful) but these are not valid excuses. My mantra for 2018 is 'health and happiness' and I have lost touch with the health part over the last month.
Why? I have just been super busy and I have been enjoying the ridiculous sunshine we have been having in Northern Ireland and for me that means gin, BBQs and being busy in the sun, whether that be seeing friends or just being out and about. I always seem to be able to lose weight over Winter and then in Summer I’m too busy eating all the ice-cream and drinking all the lovely cocktails so I regain any weight and lose any work that I’ve done.
At the minute I am feeling a little lost, but this time its okay.
Its okay because I have recognised my pattern of behaviour before I completely revert back to my starting point, where I am unhappy and I spiral in that misery of hating of how I look. Its incredible the power of that at negative mindset can have on confidence levels. I have only started to feel slightly uncomfortable again but I have the motivation to do something about it and I refuse to think like that anymore.
The main trigger of recognition this time wasn’t just the slightly tighter clothes, the loss of tone in my legs or that I’m starting to get a bit squishy, but the fact that I have a stinking cold at the minute. I have no time to be ill and no patience for it either; I’m like this pathetic, moany, cross, dizzy person who is no fun to be around. I haven’t been sick in a decent 8 months; I was taking care of myself, having my berocca and taking other vitamins everyday, drinking 2 litres of water a day, eating all the veggies and exercising at least 3 times a week and I haven't been doing that for the month of May and *bam* cold. Boooooooooo .
I also have been travelling back and forward to London over the past few weeks for work, not great when you're a sicky but still good fun, and all I've heard is 'mind the gap... mind the gap' (bet you did the London Underground guy's voice in your head didn't you) and I don't know if it was that that was triggered something with me but it made me want to write down my thoughts on the Pudgy Interim. I'm so frustrated at myself for getting sick, it was something that was totally avoidable if I had stayed on track and I had minded the bloody gap.
Well no more; I have a fabulous PT-to-be working on something for me and when she's qualified (and I have paid for her programme) I am going to be back to it! I'm really excited for my first fabulous 'Fit By Frankii' programme but I also know my best friend is a badass so I'm also a little scared. We're nearly half way through 2018, so let's get back to what's most important...
